Random posts from my old tumblr account

1. Brain Farts

   Brain Farts…hmmmmm….
   Little hiccups that my brain does.
   But given that I think it stinks when they happen…brain farts it is.
   Switching letters or words around, stray pen marks as I write.
   Tiny little annoyances in a relatively smooth verbal life.
   Then there are the bigger ones…
   The headache that is omnipresent in my right temple.
   The “checking out” in a conversation or meeting.
   For that matter, blackouts where I have no idea where I was or what I did.
   Subclinical seizures, complex-partial seizures. The emotional comorbidity. The exhaustion of living with a brain on overdrive.
   Brain Farts.

   
   
    
2. Grrrr.....pain

   Blinding ass headache…feels like some evil gnome is driving an icepick through my right temple.
   Brain Fart…took me 3 minutes to remember the word for icepick.
   Brain Fart…brushing teeth and putting on deodorant…started to put deodorant on toothbrush.
   My mom with Alzheimer’s and I have interesting conversations…most of which we can’t remember.
   Peace y’all.
3.   Pain in temple SPLITTING!!! Not responding to Aleve/Ativan plus the rest of my seizure drugs.
   Sux.
    
4. Busy day, rolled with the craziness, worked thru the pain.
   Scary when I start getting too comfortable with the calm, that I will push the envelope into being TOO chilled out, and that will signal the beginning of the cycle all over again.
    
    
5. Fuzz brained, face semi-numb, overloaded. Feeling out of sync with reality. Basically a lot of subclinical stuff going on.
    
6. Stress at work…trickle-down stress from management specifically…probably not a good thing for seizures. Blocking out a lot of the peripheral crap and writing down the critical crap. Determining that when I clock out at 3:30 this crap will be behind me til I get back to work at 7:00 tomorrow morning.
    
7.  Dr. Appt Tomorrow
   

   Appointment to meet with my neuro tomorrow. Finally got a pill dispenser so I can keep my day and night meds straight, and keep down the frustration of having to open half a dozen bottles at a time. With my memory glitches, that’s a recipe for problems.
   Hopefully she won’t get too mada at me…
8. Good Report

   Saw neuro yesterday. Changed Lamictal dosage. SO glad I respond well to that rx!!!
   Now if pre-menopause just wasn’t rearing its ugly head, I’d probably be OK.
   
   
   
    
9. Evil gnomes hammering on my right temple again!
   It shouldn’t be starting til next week…
   This sux.
   And hurts.