Thursday, June 21, 2012

Here's the visuals

Scars are on left chest and to the left of my voice box. Glued not stitched, so there should be less scarring.

Voice is already starting to change a bit, just because of how deep he had to go to get to my vagus nerve. As long as I don't lose my southern accent I really have very little opinion about it. Lol

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Surgery in the Morning

So tomorrow I have to get up, like, before God (not really I know) and be at UMC at 5:30 a.m.

Scared, excited. Mostly hopeful.

Monday, June 18, 2012

Decision Time

Well, I don't have enough vaca/sick leave to be out for surgery this week, but my husband and I talked long and hard about it over the weekend...

Basically, which is more important?

Putting it off, possibly indefinitely, because it might piss off a supervisor...

Or getting it done so I can get my life back, as well as respecting the fact that they have a crew of specialists lined up for Wednesday already scheduled...

I'll take the second option.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

No Understanding

I'm sure I'm not the first person to make the observation that non-disabled people don't understand those of us with hidden disabilities.

"What do you mean, your head never really quits hurting?"

"No wonder you can't plan a vacation since you use up all your time sick and at doctor offices..."

"I hope you don't get behind on your paperwork."

And my favorite...

"You don't look sick..."

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

This Time Next Week

Hopefully this time next week I will be lying here recovering from VNS surgery...

I can't really afford the time off, being that migraines/seizures, and now a damn sinus infection, have eaten up all my vacation and sick leave. But in an effort to end the seizures and comorbid migraines, it might be a good investment...

I just want my life back.

Monday, June 11, 2012

F√¢|<ing headache and sinus infection for over a week. Lost 2 days of the time I was going to be off for surgery,  and I don't have the stamina to work over for the comp time I would need to be off. So will get with the doc and see if we can schedule the vns for the last work day in June so I can have off the week of July 4. Which would out better for me recovery-wise anyway.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Out of Sync

I don't know if it's a seizure or a reaction to the benadryl, but I feel so out of sync with the world. Like I'm supposed to be somewhere else, or doing something else...


Very unsettling ....