Terrified of the storms coming through today. After the flood last year where we lost nearly everything, I don't "do" rain...

PTSD is what they call it.

I freak out with severe or prolonged rain. Probably will never get in a swimming pool, lake, or ocean again. Don't like my daily showers and DESPISE taking bubble baths.

There is some discussion as to whether the VNS might be effective with the PTSD, and the depression/anxiety that go along with my particular seizure disorder.

Not much if any research on those yet.

But I'm a "perfect storm" of mental health issues, and if it helps with those, then there will at least be an anecdotal case with me.

Now I'm at work so I have to go pretend I'm not coming unglued inside as this storm gets closer.

What it is...

Migraines, seizures (both complex-partial as well as subclinical), some things noticeable, some not, which is why I call them "brain farts" - they come off as little slips of memory, little bits of speech that either get turned around or fail to show up at all, blackouts, and if you don't think living with this is exhausting, just ask my family about all the stuff I've missed because I've been too tired to function...

Getting ready for VNS implant surgery sometime in the next month or so. 


That's really it right now for my first post.


I'll pull my stuff across from tumblr later this evening and some of this may make more sense.